Welcome to my feelings corner!

This is where I'm going to talk about my day and maybe even insert some pictures from my digital camera!

Date: 5/1/25

Lately, I've been having such a hard time staying motivated.

I've been struggling to get schoolwork done, clean my room, or even do hobbies. My attendance at school is low, but I can't help but feel exhausted. I did, however, get my first article published! That felt nice, but I can't stop myself from feeling as if something will go wrong with it. What if they pull it for some reason?

I'm glad to be working on my website again, though! I also have a few sewing projects I'm excited about. I'm going to make some bags; maybe I'll add some pictures of those soon! I'm thinking that doing some passion projects will get me out of my funk.

Mood today:

Date: 5/6/25

Today I went on a really lovely hike with my partner! We hiked up the side of a mountain; we didn't get to the top because I was too tired, but it was still very lovely!

My goal for this week is to stay on top of my schoolwork and finish sewing my bag. I'm also hoping I can muster up the strength to clean my very messy room.

I'm also excited for going on a nice date with my boyfriend! I just can never decide where to eat :)

Mood today:

Date: 6/2/25

God, I am so enraged. Being on my period just makes me so angry all the time. Everything just makes me so upset and overwhelmed

I'm so stressed about school and work. I work at a glasses shop which is so much harder than you'd think. It feels so high stakes. If you mess up, it's someone's glasses and they (rightfully) get so upset with you. I have panic attacks about my job even when I'm not there. I have a C in one of my classes which is very upsetting for me. It's going to tank my GPA that I worked so hard for.

The good news is that I have a job interview today. I really hope I get it. I'd love to be a barista again and get tips. The job is at this really cute bakery. I've worked many very similar jobs, so I'm confident in my abilities. I also feel like I will be less stressed out because my current job was so much more stressful. I think it will be easier for me to feel like I can regulate my emotions and realize that it's not high stakes-- it's just coffee and baked goods. No need to panic.

Mood today:

Date: 6/6/25

Hello, digital diary! I am feeling much better today.

I have accepted that as far as school goes, it is what it is. I have been having an incredibly stressful time these last two terms and I did my best; even if my current best looks different from the past.

I got that job, though! I think it will be much better for me. I am pretty nervous to quit my current job and I will miss my coworkers, but I know it will be what's best for me.

Today, I went and painted some pottery with my sister and my grandmother. I love them both so much so it was a fun time! I'm painting a travel mug that I'm going to bring to work with me so I don't waste paper cups. It was a little stressful (just because being home can be that way), but it was fun nonetheless. Now I'm at my lovely boyfriend's house. He's a darling and is letting me use his computer since mine broke recently :(

I'm thinking of how to improve my site... I'm having issues with placing images, but I'm hoping I can figure it out. Especially with this page! I want it to look as cute as my home page and my blog (I am so proud of those!!!)

Anyways, thanks for being there for me, digital diary. I need to write in here more often!! Hopefully I can get a new computer soon!

Mood today:

Date: 6/8/25

Good evening, digital diary! I'm having an okay day today.

I watched a really cool documentary today about Suzy Hotrod. She's a really cool and skilled roller derby player. I watched a bout she played in where she scored 25 points in a single jam! She was there at the beginnings of modern roller derby so it's really awesome and fascinating to watch her talk about roller derby.

I rollerskated for about 30-45 minutes today and then took a nice long nap. I guess it was a little much for me! But I think I'm going to go skating again here in a minute. I love skating so much! It's been such a fun time. I'll add a picture of my skates soon-- I painted little stars on them!

Mood today:

Date: 6/11/25

Hi, digital diary!! Guess what? I got an old computer to work so now I can work on my website more often! Yippeeeeeeeee!!!!

I finished all of my finals today which is awesome! And I didn't fail any classes! I didn't do as good as I would have hoped, but at least I passed! I also learned that I got a scholarship. This is great because I was going to have to take a gap year next year. I'm going to be transitioning from my community college to a big university. It's scary but I believe in myself!

I start at my new job soon which is really exciting! I just hope I'll be able to make ends meet. But I know whatever is meant to happen will happen. I'm just glad I won't be working in optometry anymore. Do you know how stressful it is to mess up someone's glasses? It's awful!!

I will update this entry with images later. This computer is for real so old it does not want to load anything... Looks like I'll need to borrow my darling's computer anyway...